April Fools
It’s been three years since I graduated from college, yet I still don’t know what I really want to do. I seriously envy the people who’ve already set their minds to what they want in life. I’m still looking for that in mine, and they’re already starting to settle down.
I’ll be resigning from my job as a Marketing professional this April 1. I’ll be focusing my time on growing FILED, which truly does have a lot of potential for expansion. Oz and I also have a lot of business ideas in mind that could become something great–so now’s the time to put them into action.
Awfully brave of me to take this step without any certainty. Oddly enough, despite being the thinker that I am, I make big decisions based on gut feel. This makes it scarier, of course.
Wala naman mawawala sa iyo. That’s what I tell myself. I know that if I don’t do something I’ll always keep on wondering, and there will be never-ending what ifs. I’m just promising myself that I need to have something stable by the time the year ends, or else.
– – –
Why this scares the sh*t out of me:
1. Financial instability – This is for the future thinker me.
2. Disapproval of parents – I try to tell them as less as possible because when I do tell them anything, it gets shot down. Of course, they’re just worried about me.
3. Uncertainty – I do not like not being able to plan, and being uncertain about things in general. I’d like to have at least something to hold on to.
Why this is exciting:
1. FREEDOM. Haha, seriously.
2. I won’t have to keep up with the annoying-ness of a certain person in the office.
3. I’ll be able to handle FILED full-time. No more sleeping at 2am and feeling a little guilty about doing FILED work during office hours. I’ll also be able to look for and visit suppliers at my time.
4. Execution of new business ideas!
5. I’ll hopefully be able to think more clearly about everything and know what I really want.
– – –
3 days left. Here goes!
March 29, 2011 | Categories: Just Me, Work-related | 2 Comments
Taking it from The Rescues
It’s hard to wake up each morning dreading not looking forward to the day ahead.
The walls are caving in with no warning
This ship is sinking, I gotta swim for it
I’m running out of airBreak me out tonight
I wanna see the sun rising anywhere but here
Come with me
Oh, this could be the only chance we get
We gotta take it
We don’t do it now we’ll never make it
Lose this crowd
Oh break me out
BUT, ALAS.
Commitment and responsibility. Sometimes, you have to stick with something even though you’re not as happy as you once were. Stay for the rightfully wrong reasons. Stay for respect, stay for the relationships, stay for the small ounce of love you have. I’m letting myself be dragged everywhere to nowhere, yet anchored in what I believe will be what I want. I just hope everything works out.
2010 was a year full of change, in one aspect.
2011 will also be a year full of change, in another.
Dr. M.H. Uy, thank you for carrying the big burden of being the only thing I look forward to everyday.
January 18, 2011 | Categories: Just Me, Work-related | 3 Comments
Biggest challenge of the week
My boss is on leave for this whole week and she’s left me in charge of a LOT of things, the biggest chunk of which is to handle the next training event which will happen this Friday. It’s the first time that I’ll have to do it alone. Although the most work-heavy aspect of the training would be the logistics and training materials, what I dread the most is handling our telemarketers.
Everyone I’ve worked with back in college would agree when I say that I am not an authoritarian leader. I know that people aren’t scared or intimidated by me, so imposing would not do any good. Instead, I talk to the person and make him/her understand the importance of the task, and hope against all hopes that it gets done. Besides, most of those I’ve worked with have become my friends in the process, so it’s not hard to talk to them.
Now, I’m beginning to think that not having been authoritarian (even just a little bit) was not a good choice on my part, because I’m finding it hard to talk to our telemarketers. Although they do get their job done, they get it done at a very slow pace because they’re either gossiping, playing computer games, or surfing the net. I consciously take note of the times that I remind them to call/e-mail again, because I’d hate to nag. I do understand how draining their job is because of how routinary it can get. But they’re obviously already crossing that line of understanding I have of their slacking off.
These are the reasons why I can’t seem to assert myself with them:
1. They regard me as their friend.
2. I feel that they feel I really don’t have authority over them. One of them has been with the company for over a year, and the other joined the company around 2 weeks after I did. They’re not scared nor intimidated by me.
3. I don’t want them to say that I’m bossy or a nagger.
4. I want to be kept “in the loop”. Currently they’re still sharing things with me like how they really feel about their job, etc. It’s not that I’ll use those things against them, but I believe I’ll need those things to understand better where they’re coming from.
I’m still not sure how I’ll handle things tomorrow. I guess I’ll try to be a little more strict…TRY is the operative word here. :p I’ll just remind myself that it’s what I have to do; it’s the right thing to do. That usually motivates me to do things I normally wouldn’t.
July 28, 2009 | Categories: Work-related | Leave a comment
>:/
I have an officemate who has been consistently cheating on his girlfriend of 6 years. Flirting with people in the office, left and right. He’s not happy anymore, but he can’t break up with her because he’s too scared. Scared to have no one, and end up all alone. WHAT THE HELL??! Everyone’s scared about one thing or another, but can’t he just man up and do what he has to do?? I know it’s easier said than done…but 6 years, and not even an ounce of respect for the girl.
I’m very very passionate about hating this person at the very moment, despite being friendly with him in the past month. The problem is, he really didn’t do anything to me directly, so I know I have no real right to be angry at him. That’s why I try to hide it and just keep quiet. But lately he’s been noticing how I reply to him with one-liners, and how I refuse to even look at him.
So much for thinking I was good at hiding what I felt.
July 24, 2009 | Categories: Work-related | 2 Comments
Third day
How IS life after HP?
I’ve been getting a barrage of questions about it these past few days, most from my ex-officemates. Well, it’s not all rainbows and butterflies, that’s for sure. But what I’m sure of right now is that I’m happier with my work here than I was before. Hooray for me! 🙂 For the first two days, I’ve been on the edge and scared as hell that I’ve made the wrong decision. Realizing I’m happier is a huge relief.
—
On a lighter note, I’m excited for the long weekend! Nothing planned, but still. 🙂
June 10, 2009 | Categories: Random, Work-related | Leave a comment
Drowned in thought. 