It’s been three years since I graduated from college, yet I still don’t know what I really want to do. I seriously envy the people who’ve already set their minds to what they want in life. I’m still looking for that in mine, and they’re already starting to settle down.
I’ll be resigning from my job as a Marketing professional this April 1. I’ll be focusing my time on growing FILED, which truly does have a lot of potential for expansion. Oz and I also have a lot of business ideas in mind that could become something great–so now’s the time to put them into action.
Awfully brave of me to take this step without any certainty. Oddly enough, despite being the thinker that I am, I make big decisions based on gut feel. This makes it scarier, of course.
Wala naman mawawala sa iyo. That’s what I tell myself. I know that if I don’t do something I’ll always keep on wondering, and there will be never-ending what ifs. I’m just promising myself that I need to have something stable by the time the year ends, or else.
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Why this scares the sh*t out of me:
1. Financial instability – This is for the future thinker me.
2. Disapproval of parents – I try to tell them as less as possible because when I do tell them anything, it gets shot down. Of course, they’re just worried about me.
3. Uncertainty – I do not like not being able to plan, and being uncertain about things in general. I’d like to have at least something to hold on to.
Why this is exciting:
1. FREEDOM. Haha, seriously.
2. I won’t have to keep up with the annoying-ness of a certain person in the office.
3. I’ll be able to handle FILED full-time. No more sleeping at 2am and feeling a little guilty about doing FILED work during office hours. I’ll also be able to look for and visit suppliers at my time.
4. Execution of new business ideas!
5. I’ll hopefully be able to think more clearly about everything and know what I really want.
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3 days left. Here goes!